Why am I doing this? By “This” I mean… Why am I writing this blog?
Well at first it was because I wanted to start a business and my mother advised me to start an online business and she said that it starts with blogging.
I didn’t keep it up and she get’s mad at me because I don’t write one a week like she told me to.
I think to myself, who the heck gives a crap about what I have to say… But she keeps telling me “Doing nothing gets you nowhere.” But that is defiantly not motivation enough for me to keep writing.
I feel like I have to know what I’m going to do.
I can paint and draw, but I don’t want that to be my “job” other than that, I’m not sure what the hell I can do!
I did learn how to edit videos using a software that was sort of like animation, but that didn’t really go anywhere…
I was thinking of putting my video editing services up on FIVERR.Com or some other site like that, but without being able to even say why… That never happened.
I can’t be the only person who wants to work for themselves, find something they love to do and be paid for it.
And I can’t be the only one who tried and stopped trying.
My mom says that in the beginning you have to throw some spaghetti at the wall and see what sticks. But I feel like the spaghetti I have to throw is uncooked and so I don’t even bother throwing it.
Uncooked spaghetti will not stick and so I am at a place of “WHY BOTHER.”
BUT my freaking mom is relentless because I SAID that I wanted her help and I haven’t told her to stop and so she won’t stop until I do tell her to.
So, I’m going to do what she advises.
I’m going to keep blogging and if the only thing it is for now is my journey, trying to make it in the world, then that is what it will be.
I will post things about simple daily life, wanting to stop working for the summer, wanting to look for a car to buy when I don’t really have the money to buy a car, wanting to get an apartment when I am always late with a pittance of a rent I have to pay my brother…
And I hope that someone will care! My mom says someone will, and since I have nothing to loose, I’ll keep doing it!